my blog is officially screwed up. but oh well i'm too lazy to change my layout. (:

well lets see, i haven't updated in a long long long LONG time. and my friends are complaining because i haven't been online at all since... i don't know when. haha. but i know you still love me. haha. (: kidding.

well without blogging for so many months? i kinda have alot to say and reflect on. i must say my life hasn't been all that exciting but its been fufilling and very much filled with happiness, most of it that is. well i had a lot of time to think and i'm glad that i have friends that are always there for me when i'm down and feeling like a total loser for crying so much.

i guess its these tiny little details like being there for someone that makes life much more meaningful. i'm really thankful for hannah, cheryl, shanise, pammy, dawn, shanya and not forgetting alex and arnold! (: i really don't know what i'd do without you guys. really.

the past few weeks especially when most of us were feeling really demoralised with our pathetic results and problems that suddenly came out of no where. i'm glad that i had you guys to depend on.

problems that i thought i had dealt with earlier in the year are resurfacing again. call it insecurity or any other name, it still feels the same to me. its something i thought i dealt with already, something i thought i pushed to the back of my mind.

but i guess not. maybe its something i thought i solved because of that one person. but when a new person comes along. the problem surfaces again. i'm tired of trying to stop that feeling but its not that easy. ask any girl. really. i think insecurity and jealousy are the worst feelings any girl can deal with. well i don't know maybe i'm just generalising.

well i'm glad i'm not the only person feeling that way. (: well i shall slowly solve it, just give me time. and i'm sorry for feeling this way. you've done so much and i appreciate it. (:

i shall stop reminiscing. on a happier note. do not play snakes and ladders unless you're ready to or old enough to. haha. (: ok random. oh well. i'm looking forward to cheryl's chalet thing. hahha. (: ok i think i've blogged enough for now. (:

bye bye.

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