the past week has been really stressful and demoralising because of all the results that came back and it was really appallng. its like my efforts jut went to waste and all, like no matter how much effort i put in i only managed to improve slightly which wasn't what i was expecting. i hate expecting and not getting anything. i hate being worried and i hate not doing well.

for the past few days i kept asking God for what i didn't have and wanted him to make miracles happen right befroe my eyes, i kept asking Him why he didn't see me through my exams and why couldn't he have just helped me get somewhere decent for the first month. and then i realised, instead of questioning God why all these happened i should be thankful for all that has happened.

i know i didn't do well for prelims but i guess its God's blessing in disguise, if i did well i might get complacent and not study harder then i should be and its not that he didn't see me through my exams but it was my own strentgh i was using to overcome my papers and not His. i've learnt that His strength is more powerful than mine and that with Him all things are possible,God will never forsake me when i'm in need. i guess i've learnt it the hard way but its not the end for me, i still have one more chance to prove that i can do it.

let's all run this last lap with faith and believe that all things are possible with the strength of our Lord. i believe that we can be the come back kids who can be remembered as the batch with the worst prelim results but with the best comeback and outstanding o level results. we just have to believe. work very very hard and have faith, oh and also pray hard. haha.

well i'm off to do more bio now. till after Os. (: hehe.

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